Six Poems

by henry 7. reneau, jr.

that’s the way it’s always been .

 

the stars speak for the lonely blue hearts , and

the lonely blue hearts speak the truth

 

. . . for Gaza , for the Trail of Tears , for Jim Crow and slavery

, for the feral grasp of colonialism and its violent justifications

, for Operation Enduring Freedom , the Holocaust , and Shock

and Awe—the breath that caught before the air filled with

bullets , bombs , shrapnel , and screams ; for racism , misogyny

, homophobia , xenophobia , and the flagrant narcissist fascist

impulses reincarnated as Trump , because we are so anxious

to make shit up to justify cowardly acceptance when we buy

into that bullshit they’re selling because they lie so good

we beg them to come back and lie to us again , even though

we know they’re lying ; for Vietnam , Somalia , Bosnia , Iraq

, Afghanistan , and now , Iran , maybe next month , North Korea

, are generational acts of brutality by tradition ; for the genocide

we sanction for money , the jets , destroyers and tanks all filled

with depleted uranium arsenal , for Empire , the State , for all

those who think they own Others , for amerikkkan avarice 

chewin’ up diamonds an’ shittin’ out coal ; for the mandatory

minimum laws that insures justice for some/sum of the whole

; for the Cheney/Bush/Colin Powell lie to the United Nations

that dictated a clear objective , overwhelming force , and an exit

strategy that mirrored the atrocities of every conquering Empire

, for every that’s the way it’s always been as justification for 

the perfect crime—not the one that remains unsolved but the one

that frames the wrong doer ; for every what once was , that now

is , but doesn’t have to continue to be , there is corruption as old

and racist mean as hog pen mud all over , for the history groomed

beyond the massacre of mass graves , for the reality no one sees

but me—every priceless human life lost , is a pain i cannot forget

—a painted over rust , that weeps tears , drop by drop , upon

my heart ; for hindsight that is not so much a corrective measure

as a habitual repetition of apathetic resignation ; for wishing

, hoping , dreaming that We Shall Overcome . . . Someday , but we

all still have bills to pay , and . . . that’s the way it’s always been

 

. we are all mired in matter until we are not .

such stuff as dreams are made . . . 

 

a lazy day in hell

as industrious as maggots dreaming of iridescent angel wings

, lifting them—an annunciation of immaculate conceptionfrom the

froth & stench of road-kill , from nature’s cycle of eventual decay

. a portentousness

, not unlike the dreamer’s kafkaesque metamorphosis : blowflies

drawn to distant carcasses , to massive , aggressive municipal waste

, to spawned maggots that wake from exponential dreams

of iridescent angel wings

 

. does belief come from what we are , or from what we are becoming

 

? repeating the same cycle over & over

& over , as traditional , as the same results with no viable solution

. an addictive euphoria , like going out backwards ; that is to say

, you reap what you sow , repeating a history of tears into a field of fallow

& the emotional drought of human hearts that feign muscularity

, holding on to something dangerous & scared to let go—a suffocated echo

within the dream : relentless drops of water from a leaky faucet

, the drip , drip , dripping

between two places it is trying to escape

. into the vast , blue-sky domed forever . boundless & undiminished

as a dream of iridescent angel wings

, rising into the unpredictable oxygen of eternity . 

 

 

Soylent Red , Yellow . . . Green [revisited]

 

If you listen , people will tell you exactly what they want , and

what they are willing to do to get it . Self-preservation

 

, or too much covet to quench all the want in the world , has

built a world where standing together is impossible . Are they

 

who keep track of what sells : how many units—where and

when , for exactly how much . Is to covet

 

: to give obsession its form , to name it , thus creating a curse

, like the Nazis Übermensch

 

, who weighed and counted every bushel of hair . Measured

the weight and purity of gold in each extracted tooth

 

, the amount of caloric intake that would keep a slave alive

long enough to work them to death

 

. And we tout humanity’s inherent goodness—based on what

exactly ? Amazon uses cookies to track its customers’

 

shopping habits and preferences . The algorithms that manipulate

consumers like Hari Seldon’s mathematical prognostications

 

. Covet is the blood in the mortar that binds all the bricks

. The people , who will accept anything just to say they have , or

 

are something . Is an immorality postured as success , an arrogance

rising from a thousand thrones . Are they who view Others

 

as a piece of lint , a plastic bottle cap , and the ashes of our

personal watchlists scattered at the crossroads of commerce . But

 

, they are only doing their job , right ? And our complicit silence

before the world goes crazy—eventually , the neon , holographic

 

billboards on the moon , and the masses’ minimum caloric intake

now toxic wafers of recycled humans , a social cannibalism

 

. If you listen , people will tell you exactly what they want , and

what they are willing to do to get it , are complicit in 

 

building a world where co-existence is impossible .    

so small , the space between us

 for John Ortiz-Hutson

 

we know

               who

                       we

                             are

in reflection , as our eyes pass judgment

 

, other eyes

                   passing

                                over

                                        us

                                            , but so afraid to see 

 

                             . in praise , or denigration , each

to their own sixth degree

                  of separation

 

. we only see

                      what

                               we’ve been taught to see 

, believe we see , most often  

avoiding another’s eyes

                                       . the willful disassociation

that clouds first impression . the shiny , compact technology

attempting to make conversation , like prisoners of rote

                                                              with no new instructions

 

. bad to worse to change is gonna’ come

 

. . . most often , transgression

, that our minds conceive for hands

rarely opened in empathy

& charity , most often nil , a vicious fist of malice

, insecurity or self-serving acquisition

                                           ever-ready with false platitudes

 

: have a nice day . you have

                                             our condolences

our thoughts & prayers

 

. our church will pray for you

. . . that announces 

                               who

                                       we

                                             are

                                                   in the eyes of another

 

. we say what we want to see

                                               , like social pressure

performing a miracle just beyond our grasp

, a social ass-/similation

                                        to stay in good grace

: i’m sorry , when humans need

                    an 18 inches of personal space

. all the status quo mute 

to drive each other

                               away

                                         into anonymous isolation , a disconnection

                                                                                     of polite society

 

. we look at one another , not with our eyes

                                                                      but with our doubts

& fears . we know

                               who

                                       we

                                             are

                                                   as reflection , a me , unlike you .

the country nod . . .

 

a colored-oriented ontology . . . is epigenetic  

a pale-green stalk humps itself from dirt

heightens , swells and explodes into an iris or a rose

seeing you seeing me . . .

an eye to eye gravitational magnetic intensity

is generations deeper than . . .

is heart/  felt

more meaningful than

the offhand platitude

have a nice day

more empathic than a fake-ass fist bump

 

the country nod . . .

 

i see you seeing me seeing you . . .  

my brotha’ 

my sista’ 

my nigga !! chain link to chain link to . . .   

is eye contact that communicates

from eye to heart to soul

the synaptic connection of one Other to an/Other

 

the country nod . . .

 

inquires where your people come from

? Mende

? Ibo

? Yoruba

? Fon

? Masai ? to bridge the gaze of race

reciprocal in tribulation times 

the tribal greeting between us

that gives neither quarter nor measure

 

the country nod . . .

 

to peer numinously as to how holy/wholly we are

t/here it is , the knowing nod , to tilted chin

to Black brethren and sistren at the crossroad

i hear the blues-toned voice of great poets

a griot tongue like salt circles of protection

defying zoning codes—June Jordon , Gwendolyn Brooks

Langston Hughes , Mary-Alice Daniel

all those who witness the angelic subconscious hum

of our lives . right here but , elsewhere

extending refuge and salvation

out to the imperiled in obvious parallel

the foot feels the foot when it feels the ground  

 

the country nod . . .  

 

seeing you seeing me seeing you . . .

is the Black GI “dap”

at the Eden gate with the flaming sword

signifyin’ my tribe

not the clichéd backhand of

i’m sorry

that is nowadays

routine rarely ever truly meant

and always too little too late

to repair the damage done

 

the country nod . . .

 

the star that burns within

that touches each Other in Diaspora 

that dot-dot-dit-dot-dit-dot-dot-dash ghetto code

a limbic resonance

so compelling , there’s no room

to be aware of or interested in a ringtone

(brethren to sistren

to brethren to brethren

to sistren to sistren

to brethren and sistren)

 

the country nod . . .

 

not only holy , it is perceptive

it is not only sympathy , it is empathy 

reaching out to a reaching hand . . . 

 

whas up , my nigga !!

creatio ex nihilo

 

history is a mahogany cabinet in a grand , marbled ballroom

filled with mirrors and relics . the past made of carved ivory

. exhumed indigenous bones . mahjong tiles . a slave’s teeth

. there , the vise-/grip of a fist . a hammering gavel in the

wrong hands . the corrupted morality of control shrouded in

crow-dark robes (the costumes of justice) widening the chasm

between blind justice and just[us] whom they legalese to caste-

/igate , is distilled into sinister dioramas of [w]reckoning

. a thought . an impulsive action . a wildness bigger than me

, both dangerous and imbedded , calculating consequences

that threaten a wildfire +’justment . the lies and corruption

and hate stacked precariously on every surface of post-/racial

. the moments , months , and centuries like toxic waste water

through a sieve , shows us a freight train carrying migrants

fleeing hunger and violence . shows us the rewritten history

of aggression been erased , the lynched humans documented

on postcards . when we looked in amerikkka’s mirror , we

didn’t know our own faces , a reflection so like us (the space/

between the spaces) , we could not deny our not seeing , and 

knowing , that which created more than eyes-wide-blindness

, allowed the lie we restless moaned in sleep . the stolen

indigenous lands paved over with boulevards and the artificial

gardens of single family tract homes . the truth as whatever

could not be mentioned . the speechless gawp of muted dissent

like a bolt of lightning from the sky with no tree to burn , and

the future , out of kilter in reams of industrial yellow smoke

. the a-/massed production of toxic obsolescence (a venomous

multi-/colored snake winding through the brush) towards the

Fall . a reciprocity of digitized encounters . the many persons

blended with the virtual crowd . and the inhuman-/ness of it all

. maybe gathered for a lynching , to savor the shame like sugar

, every trace of venom . our choices with their alchemical logic

, scraping flint into fire . are part song for the End-/Time , and

part song of hope , like God exhaled a shower of molten steel

, and we inhaled our final death-/rattle of breath . the gravity

of heavy metal seeping into mud . can you see it ? as from

above ? as only as sickening as the secret within , an abyss

compounded from a child’s nightmare cry , all that sadness

in one place , as we wrote the endings of our own life stories

. creatio ex nihilo . like talking to the ocean

                                      through a thousand years of silence .

 

 

Note : creatio ex nihilo, like something out of nothing, like nothing from nothing, is hope conflicted with disappointment.     

Photo by Mercedes Herrara

BIO: henry 7. reneau, jr. writes words of conflagration to awaken the world ablaze, an inferno of free verse illuminated by his affinity for disobedience and a barbwired conviction that prequels the spontaneous combustion that blazes from his heart, phoenix-flared red and gold, like a discharged bullet that commits a felony every day, exploding through change is gonna come to implement the fire next time. He is the author of the poetry collection, freedomland blues (Transcendent Zero Press) and the e-chapbook, physiography of the fittest (Kind of a Hurricane Press.) His poetics are situated at the intersection of experimental modernist and autobiomythographic free verse poetry. His work is published in Superstition Review; TriQuarterly; Prairie Schooner, Notre Dame Review; Punt Volat; The Ana; and Oyster River Pages. His work has also been nominated multiple times for the Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net.

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