by Sam Casey

Free of Need

 

Lady Liberty's sucking my clit before her shift

At the local titty bar for hungry men and coy women.

The first time I saw her Fourth of July routine

I was enamored as her red white and blue

Lingerie made its way to the floor. I held

Up my bill long enough to make it to

The back room where her curvy body looked

Capable of bearing children I tell myself I

Don't want and don't need. All I wanted to do

Was bury my non-existent sperm between

Those thick thighs, but I was on the customer side

So I stayed my thoughts of reproduction.

After she had removed my pants and I lay

Pussy-bare on the bed, she began to work

Her tongue for my time and my money.

For a moment, there was nothing else

I would rather have than the explosions

Of pleasure brought about by skilled labor.

While I'm dreaming of a me with pleasure

On tap, she's realizing I'm not fully present

And wiggles her finger into my asshole

To get my attention. I get it, she's in a rush

And here I am pursuing wish fulfillment.

I pull my lips apart and let her get me off

In record time. After the obligatory,

Halfhearted thanks, I'm alone in the room.

I paid for it, so I might as well use it.

I collect my things and my thoughts

Before heading out. Next to the titty bar

Is a dingy diner and above it is a dingy apartment.

I go first to the second, a place filled with

Shit I don't need and things I don't want,

Before secondly going to the first, my work

To pay for pleasure that doesn't last and bills

That don't matter. That discontent

Didn't fade, but the pleasure did, and while

Lady Liberty's still here, I can't seem to get off

On the hope that she can save me from here.

Weariness Worn

 

Lionel worked on the linotype.

Lily worked on the uniforms

For the men going to war.

Lily meet Lionel walking home

From a ten hour shift. She

Was tired, but Lionel seemed

Nice so they went for dinner.

Lonely Lionel's wife had died.

Little Lily never had time for

Love, or any of its cousins.

After dinner, Lionel walked

Lily to her door, pecked her

Cheek and promised to meet

Her in the same place the next

Night. Lily went to sleep tired,

But excited for the change.

 

The next night, Lionel had

Flowers for Lily and Lily wore

Her best dress for Lionel.

On the walk, they rehearsed

Their day. One of Lily's

Coworkers passed out again.

One of the machines at Lionel's

Work started malfunctioning.

There was rumor that someone

Lost a finger at Lily's work,

But she didn't see it. Lionel's

Boss was pleased when he

Caught an error in the print.

The wait for the table was

Blessedly short as Lionel

Had run out of things to talk

About while standing. He was

Much better talking while

Sitting. Lily was determining

That it would not be apropos

To discuss the issue with

The bathroom at work with

Her gentleman caller. They

Sat in a booth, thankfully, and

Lionel ordered them two Reuben

Sandwiches for dinner, which

Lily found a bit presumptuous,

But she didn't say anything.

 

Lionel talked much of his dead

Wife throughout dinner and after.

Lily listened, hoping unsuccessfully

To shift the conversation. When

Lionel pecked her cheek and

Promised to meet her again

The next day, she tried to form

The words no thank you, or

Don't bother, but instead she

Turned around and went into

Her apartment. She shared

This apartment with other

Seamstresses and she asked

Them how to get rid of a suitor,

But all they heard is that she

Had found someone, so they

Celebrated and congratulated,

Ignoring her quandary. As she

Lay in bed, dreading the next day

As well as the next night, Lily

Decided to not worry about it.

This was a mistake.

 

A few years later, Lily was Lionel's

Second wife with a baby in her arms,

Another on the way, and more to

Come, without doubt. She no longer

Worked long hours as a seamstress

Getting paid, but rather sewed all

The outfits for her husband and child,

Who would only demand more

Clothes as he got older. Lionel

Still talks often about his dead wife,

As well as about work and whatever

Else pops in his head, whereas Lily

Has grown rather quiet. She is not

Sure if she was more tired before

Or more tired now. She is not sure

Of much. She is just tired.

Vindictive Vines

 

Wine stained lips linger longer on the lovers'

Quarrel as night descends into dusk,

Clarity's tatters dissipating and Passion's poison

Seeping into blood once hot with unbridled love.

 

She favors a slight unseen, the love withheld,

The part of him he never gave. He, however,

Prefers the insult delivered in front of his peers,

For humiliation with an audience is unforgivable.

 

There is no patience on this night, only pain.

The hurt freely given and woefully received will bloom,

A bruise becoming larger than either body can carry.

 

It will take time, but the wounded two will turn

To one and one. As one, they will walk parallel paths,

Letting the bruise fade and lips linger on sweeter notes.

And someday they'll learn that wine stained lips

Let slip passions better left untold.

Ghosted

 

Oh how these ashes haunt me so

Returned to me in place of a man

I hadn't planned to see again

Now I'm the keeper of my exe

Respecting the dead with respect I lacked

For the man. He wished for peace with friends

From war, a combat cemetery,

A modern day Elysium,

A Cerberus of paperwork

Guarding entry to the tombs.

His ghost can't fill out forms and I am

Reminded how little I knew of the man

Who occupied a few of the years

I used to hold so precious. I'm stuck

With ashes haunting me, unable

To exorcise spectre of loss

A life lost young, a lost love soured,

A woman and her ashes lost from time,

Searching for a place where they can find peace.

Rediscovered

 

I held onto my memories as long as I could,

But the past fades as fast as it's made and I couldn't

Remember her when I saw her again surrounded by

Dusty dreams and broken ballads. Familiarity

Struck her eyes as clueless curiosity struck mine.

We talked and I preened, showing the best of me,

Unknowingly engaging in courtship of an old friend.

She seemed oblivious of my advances, discussing

Her successes and failures alike while I displayed

My peacock feathers. It wasn't until she asked if

I still talk to him that the illusion shattered and those

Memories that faded so softly returned so starkly,

The hours in youth talking, advising, pleading with him,

Eventually successfully as he abandoned the only life

He had for four walls under a doctor's care, her face

As we dropped him off, this woman who knew

Just as much about him as me even though we rarely

Interacted, her face sharing my regret, not for the actions,

But rather the necessity of it for someone so young.

Those memories took a lifetime to live and a lifetime

To lose, but returned in an instant leaving me

Stalled, chaotic emotions preventing processing

As she awaited my answer. She took my silence

With grace, waiting beyond what was polite

Before making her excuses and leaving me.

When the words finally did return, I was

Alone and I responded out loud: I miss him

But I lost him long ago and I can't return

Pragmatic Affection

 

When he came to my house across the beach and stone

He thought I was an angel and I thought him stick and bone.

I fed him what I found wandering through the wood

Swine cooked to perfection, an unconventional food

For him, at least. He regaled me with his tale, his mighty ship

Traversing across the seas, his armor pressing into my hip,

My hand stroking his locks as my sailor told me of giants,

Sirens, monsters, Gods, and then, the war, the battlements,

The blood, the boys killed by his design, the corpses defiled.

He wished to return to before, before his own shadow reviled

Him so. I told him to rest, for no monsters nor Gods could catch

Him here. For seven years I told him to heal, to rest, for no patch

Could cover the hole left from war and no return would erase

What was done. When he begged with agony in his face,

I knew I could not give him peace. I removed his imagined

Monsters, returned his crew, fixed his ship, gave him wind.

He sailed for the past, unable to be present, hoping for the future

Where he had never played the mortal game of death and war.

BIO: Sam Casey is a poet with another job that tries to distract from her experiencing life and putting it into words. Her poetry has been published by Quill Keepers Press, Eternal Haunted Summer and Hallaren, among other places. Her first poetry chapbook was published with Naked Cat Publishing and her second collection, Love Songs For My Ex, was published in January, 2025 with Wider Perspectives Publishing. She continued writing after her second collection, but has not maintained her social media sadly. She is excited to come back to the poetic word because writing is delightful, but sharing with others is orgasmic.

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